just so you know.

My previous blogs, "my letter to him" and "my letter to him [continued]" were directed to my ex fiance, E***. You see, during our relationship, we went through a plethora of issues and difficulties. Of course we both made mistakes but we tried to work through them. i did a couple of things I wasn't supposed to but because of R****. [I spoke of R**** in one of my previous blogs]. I was so angry and upset at what R**** had done, that I swore that I would take my anger out on someone.. A man.. And I did. And unfortunately, it was E***. Don't get me wrong. I am NOT  the vengeful type of person but I had already gone through a lot & I mean, we women are like that; believe it or not. While hurting E***, I fell deeply in love with him. & he accepted me. He accepted me & all the pain I carried in my heart. I came to ♥ him with all my organs but it wasn't the same. The trust wasn't completely there. So i came back to school, but because I am a senior, I got caught up with all the senioritis [it's a disease us high school seniors get where you get really stressed out because life is hitting you hard] & I couldn't with the fiance stress as well, so I eventually cut him off. I cried & it hurt him bad, but i had to do it.

So to all you people, I am not a bad person, but sometimes you have to do things that you don't want to in order to secure yourself & your future. You can't always listen to your heart. You have to pay attention to your brain as well.


E*** & I aren't together anymore. [I've a new partner & so does he]. But the ♥ he had/has for me still lingers my body & warms me up at night. It cheers me ^ when I'm sad & it grounds me when I am 002 up in the sky.


♥ is a beautiful thing & it comes with hardships. When you find it, don't let it go!