waiting for you.

I try to convince you that I'm waiting,

But you don't believe me at all.

Alone at night I cry,

You would never wonder why.

Another day is born for one more attempt,

But just to find denial and one more regret.

I'm pissed you don't believe I'm waiting,

And I wish for you to see.

That all I've ever longed,

Was for you to be with me.

I tell you that I love you,

Sometimes you don't even respond.

I get so fucking angry 

Because I'm telling you what I feel.

You just ignore and stare at me,

As if I were just a lustful meal.

There's no doubt you knew what you were doing to me.

And now I'm stuck here thinking about about you,

Like a bird that's waiting to be set free.

We start and stop talking for a bit,

But destiny brings us back together.

Now I reminisce those times,

And wish they were forever.

I feel as if surrounded by a monster of fog,

And I can't get through.

Perhaps the father I walk, 

The closer I'll get to you.

I know where you are,

But do you know where I'm at?

I wonder if you think of me,

I know I'm thinking of my little gangsta ckat.

You're so far away,

But yet so close in my heart.

It's time to get in touch,

And get out of the dark.

Again, I tell you that I love you,

And still, you don't believe it's true.

You ask 'What's in it

For me to be with you.'

There's no doubt I've been through hell with you.

Even my little brother, David, knows.

But besides all the pain I've been through,

There's one dream I know will come true,

And believe it or not ... 

It's to stay waiting for you!

To tell you a little about my poem, because yes I wrote it, I actually dedicated it to someone I considered very special at the time. And I have spoken about him before, R****. I wrote this on [4.8.08]

Dedication: I wrote this poem for all the girls that are waiting for their perfectly imperfect man. Perhaps you've already found him, but you're waiting for the right moment to confess what you feel for him. Or you're wating for him to confess what he feels for you. You're waiting for him to comeback so that destiny could bring you back together. This poem is for ******* ******* **, 'Mi Principe,' who's in Texas right now for the AirForce. 'I'm always going to ride for you, even if I'm not with you!' I ♥ you with all my heart & i'll always be 'waiting for you!'

Now you see, I was really into R**** at that time, still. We met August 9th of 2006. I was 13 [turning 14 in a couple of weeks]. He was 17 [turning 18 on October **th]. We met in SixFlags. To make a long story short, I was always there for him, no matter what [& I do mean NO MATTER WHAT!]. I went through a couple of months full of confusion & mixed emotions. In the end, it didn't work out. But ay, we all have to go through things in order to learn. He's doing good now [@ ******** for the Army] & I hope he's happy.

Happiness is all that counts!